My First School
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| Nalanda Bal Vihar, Kalyan (East) in 2005 |
Why I Still Own this Toy from the 1980s?
We all have that one item from our childhood that holds a special place in our hearts — a blanket, a photograph, a storybook, or in my case, a rather peculiar toy made of rubber. This isn’t the kind of toy you see anymore. Today, plastic rules the world of playthings. But back then, in the 1980s, rubber was the go-to material. Durable, flexible, and oddly comforting to chew on — which I’ll get to in a moment.
My first toy was a rubber elephant with a little boy named "Om" sitting on its back. Om’s head could rotate a full 360 degrees — something that felt like pure magic when I was a toddler. The elephant wasn’t just a passive ride; its rubber neck moved too, allowing for endless imaginary adventures.
What makes this toy special isn't just its vintage charm. It’s the history embedded in it. You can still find tiny tooth marks on Om’s head — evidence of my early teething days. Yes, I gave it a fair share of bites. Somehow, the rubber survived both time and toddler rage.
And then there’s the whistle — a clever little design feature. Two small holes were drilled into the elephant’s feet where a whistle was fitted. Press the elephant’s stomach, and out came a sound that was part squeak, part trumpet — and all joy to my young ears.
Now you might wonder, why am I describing such a silly old toy in a blog post?
Because it’s not really about the toy.
This elephant and Om are a symbol — a reminder of how deeply we, as human beings, get attached to things. People, places, habits, even objects — we give them meaning, wrap emotions around them, and let them become part of our identity. Over time, of course, many of these attachments fade. New ones replace them. The old becomes memory.
This rubber toy, now worn out and tucked away in a drawer, once meant the world to me. It was my companion, my entertainment, my comfort. Today, it’s a fond relic — something I can hold, press, and smile at. The intense bond I once had with it has loosened its grip, but the warmth of the memory still lingers.
And maybe that’s the real point. Life is all about forming attachments — and then, learning to let go. That’s growth. That’s maturity. That’s moving on.
But once in a while, it's beautiful to look back — to a time when all you needed to feel joy was a squeaky elephant and a boy named Om.
Reciting the Most Powerful Poem in Marathi - Kana
“Kana” (literally “Backbone”)
“Sir, do you recognize me?”
Someone drenched in rain arrived,
Clothes torn, his hair dripping wet.He sat a moment, then smiled, looked up and said:
“Mother Ganga came visiting —
Stayed in my humble home, and went away!Like a bride away from her natal house,
She danced along the four walls.
How could she leave with empty hands?
Thankfully my wife remained.The wall collapsed, the hearth went cold;
Whatever was, is no more!
She left one drop of water under my eyelids as blessing.Now, with my wife, Sir, I’m fighting—
Throwing soil and mud,
Rebuilding cracked walls.As my hand went to my pocket, he stood up smiling and said,
“No, no, no money, Sir—
I just felt so alone.My home may have broken, but my backbone didn’t.
Just place your hand on my back and simply say—
Fight!”
Heirlooms ain't an Identity!
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The little cloud followed his father beneath and everywhere he traversed. They flew over the valleys, the pastures, the mountains, the lakes, the mangroves and the rivers. The little cloud always flew beneath his father and enjoyed every moment of his existence. He was very proud of the glorious history his father had. He boasted about all that he had - his heirloom and about all those things that supported his cause. The father cloud enjoyed his parenthood too and was always happy to protect his son from the winds, the lightening and the thunderstorms. He always cared for his son. The little cloud knew that, despite any forthcoming challenge, there ain't any reason he should be bothered at. Days were bliss and nights seemed clumsy for the little cloud. Life was a sumptuous journey for this little chap.
One fine day the father cloud realized that he was old, too old to carry any more work. He decided to give up and realize the purpose of his life. He spread up his mighty arms that resulted into a heavy downpour. The little cloud was frightened at the sight, which he had never dreamt in his worst nightmare. The heavy rainfall lasted for hours. The father cloud had quenched the thirst of numerous creatures on mother earth. The flora and fauna was blessed with the early showers of the monsoon. The little cloud observed his father's work and felt sorry for what he saw.
The rains had calmed down. The sky was clearer and the father cloud was no where visible. The little cloud looked at itself and felt sorry for his withered form. The air continued fading him away. He could see his father's work all over and in every space that surrounded him. The father cloud had survived his life in bringing up new things and creating things from scratch. He had devoted his life working, merging with smaller clouds and growing up to this extent. His hard work had fetched him name and fame on his own merits.
It was high time for the little cloud to realize that although he was a part of the glory, all that he lacked was an Identity.
The matter of few minutes...
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(This is a work of fiction but some parts of it are inspired from my real life incident on 11th July, 2006)
This story has bagged the first prize in the story contest at Infosys-Mangalore!
It has already started raining in Mumbai and the fun is back with the monsoon thrill – reminding me of those childhood days when I used to run out of my home to soak up my body in the early showers of the monsoon neglecting Mom’s cries to stay back home. The days when she used to worry about me over small issues and the days when she used to caress me passionately when I suffered from the slightest known fever.Today, I am not that small and her worries have shown a gradual decrease with the passage of time. This is the time when I sit in my cubicle engrossed in my work miles away from home. Gone are those days leaving behind sheer memories of those good times.
I look outside the window to see the waters pouring down that fail to excite me anymore. Then I throw my sight at the oak tree just in front of the window that looked so fresh despite standing there for years. Reminds me of the freshness of Mom’s kiss she offered me on my forehead at times when I made her proud. I take a small sip from the coffee cup and glue my eyes back to the computer screen. I make several futile attempts to build back my concentration and finally stand up and walk towards the window and start staring at the cloudy sky which was once my sole reason of happiness during monsoons. But nothing succeeds to entertain me in this alien land. I start thinking about my city where the rains have a different meaning for me. Wish I could rewind my life a few years back to enjoy the rains and play in the mud, scaring Mom and making her run behind me. Wish I could still feel that healing touch at times when I am down.
Now my sight wanders deeper inside the clouds and so do my thoughts soon to realize Joyan patting on my shoulder.
‘Heard about the serial blasts in Mumbai? You’re from Mumbai right?’ Joyan said.
That was quite enough to distract my stream of thoughts over the past few minutes. I looked back at Joyan to discover that what he said was something damn serious.
‘Yes! Where did you hear this?’ I interrogated.
‘It’s in the news! Just a few minutes back several local trains were burst open.’ Joyan said.
That was enough to shake the floor beneath my foot. In no moment I came back to my desk trying to call my Brother Nikki’s cell. I looked at the watch that showed 18:46 IST - the time when commuters travel back to home – the peak hours of train travel. The news was enough to pump out liters of adrenaline off my body and I was able to feel the vacuum generated within my stomach. My heartbeats started multiplying when my every attempt failed to connect me to his cell. Somehow I was able to connect to the home number - never expecting Nikki to pick up the home phone at this point of time.
‘I heard of the blasts in the local trains! Is everybody safe?’ I asked.
‘Dad is still in office. No idea where Mom is! May be she is on the way home. I am very scared! Not able to contact her on cell too! Seems like all the mobile phones are jammed!’ Nikki was about to weep.
‘Damn! You mean she is traveling in train?’ I asked.
‘Yes!’ Nikki replied.
‘Don’t worry! She will be all right and I’ll give you a call after 10 minutes’ I allegedly spoke back pretending to handle the situation.
I kept the receiver down. Joyan was still standing behind me. He noticed the fear that was prevailing in my eyes that almost spoke everything.
‘Everything alright Nee?’ Joyan asked.
I shrugged unable to speak a single word.
That was followed by a continued silence. Then I tried in vain connecting to Mom’s cell a dozen times. I stood back in dismay and walked back towards the window unable to think how to react. All that wandered in my mind was Nikki’s voice and Mom’s face that were followed by malefic mentations. I looked back at the clouds that had by this time gathered the momentum and were down pouring vigorously than ever. The howling of the winds continued to scare me. Then I tried to look back at the oak which now resembled a faint outline and gradually started fading out of my vision. I could see its branches waving seeming to fight against the storm; struggling for its existence. The window pane made a huge bang over its frame but unable to distract my attention. Joyan closed the window. The darkness of the dusk started spreading its arms over me. Within a minute it was pitch dark and the tree was no more in the scene.
I came out of the building unable to bear the situation. It was raining like hell and I kept walking to find my oak which I wanted back from the arms of the dusk. But all I could see was darkness. I was able to feel the weight of my tears on my cheeks that were now mixed with the rain drops and were swept along. The wind was driving me crazy. I came back to my building and started walking upstairs back to my cubicle and saw Joyan coming towards me.
‘Where were you Nee? There was a call from your father. He told me to tell you that your Mom has just reached home.’ Joyan almost yelled.
And that seemed like a statement for which to hear one would like to die a thousand times. I could feel my lips stretching below my eyes that were still shedding tears – tears that now had a different meaning. I wasn’t able to stop myself hugging Joyan and ran at my desk and called Mom.
‘You scared me to death Mom! You cannot imagine how worried I was!’ I said.
I looked outside the window. The rains had calmed down.
‘You thought I would die?’ said Mom.
‘Oh! Come on Mom! This isn’t funny’ I said.
That reminded me back those days when I scared Mom and ran out in rain. It looked like she had taken the entire revenge in just a few minutes. Clearly she deserves a lot more than this. I was lucky to have my Mom back but the incident took away several mothers, fathers and husbands who no way deserved such a cheap death.




